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this talent show tonight should be o.k., but how o.k.? I'm a little worried. The plan is this:

as people come in i'm going to play harp, and when everybody is seated and we're ready to begin either me or bobby will announce the acts in the talent show. In between acts there will be a short 1-2 minute musical interlude on the piano, which should be enough time to switch acts but not too long that people get sick of it. i'm feeling a little crappy lately just because i'm freaking out that i can't "find" an adviser. of course, by "find" i mean that the two people i have talked to didn't jump in my lap to tell me that they would love love love for me to consider them as a possible adviser. I'm not really sure, but i think that if i don't find an adviser soon that i might go completely crazy. you know, the kind of crazy where you can't stop talking to yourself in the quiet of your mind when nothing else is happening (in bed before sleep, for example, or sitting between classes, or spacing out during class and thinking the same question over and over and over: "what am i going to do?!")

my experience with experiences is that the things that are meant to happen happen rather easily, without too much teeth pulling. granted, i haven't even really got out the forceps yet, but certainly the pain is not restricted to my teeth right now. i feel like an imprisoned tiger, yearning to get out and tear the ground with my 4 inch claws into the soft peat as i run run run in the sparkling daylight, under the trees. but the prison bars are the trees, and the fear of which tree to run under is the jailer. the indecision and unhappy consequences resulting from my lack of direction are causing me to stay up late lately, but rather than make me tired in the morning i just take naps in the late afternoon, usually around 7 or 8 pm for an hour. the result is some kind of late siesta where i actually feel pretty good during the day, if i could just stop asking myself the same question over and over and over....