good job volcano
for being better than richard murdock
we like you volcano
I was about to watch the debate between President Obama and Mitt Romney, and I was a little early and there were these negative political adds on TV. Negative adds really disturb me so I changed the channel to NOVA on PBS, or maybe it was NATURE. On the screen was a volcano which was erupting, it was on the beach and the lava was touching the ocean water and instantly boiling it. The cameraman went underwater in one shot following the molten lava underwater as it cooled and turned into black, very hot rock called 'pillow lava'.
I realized that nature shows are so enjoyable because they are Positive. they say, hey look at the world and how awesome and grand it is, NOT oh you stupid volcano we hate you for existing. I realized that there is something fundamentally, inherently, self-evidently better about building something up as beautiful and wonderful rather than pointing out how disgusting someone is.
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Thursday, April 4, 2013
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
sorry
My Jess,
I'm sorry I wasn't there for you today. What is more I'm sorry for all the times I haven't been there, like last night and the night before, when you were getting ready to go to Antonio's party. I know I can 'help', and that when you ask for it and its not there that is painful.
The pain is not the point.
Me not being there, unfortunately, is the point. I am essentially trying to do whatever it is that i want to do. What i need to do. What i need to do is climb. I do not need to climb so much. What i need to do is work. I need to work more. What i need to do is make sure that the children are taken care of. What i need to do is make sure that you are taken care of.
There is no ordering on needs. That is, no need is better than any other need, in particular there is no ordering that says what is the first need, the second need, the last need, and so on. They are just all needs.
Here's my problems: Right now you feel you need me. You need to figure out a lot of stuff without me. Without me is not alone, although that is a HARD one. I shouldn't put needs on other people, like you. I really, really shouldn't put needs on other people that would destroy them. I do not like this gamble. At all. The problem is that for whatever reason we don't seem to be able to be around each other right now, approximately 40% of the time. The problem is that when we shouldn't be around each other we, inevitably, are. I understand that this is not what you are mad at me about, or at least not solely. These are my problems.
I promise i will do my best to meet all my needs except the one where I need you to do more without me. All other needs I will do my best to achieve; each one given the consideration all needs deserve.
Like an apology, this one really comes off more as a lecture, more of an explanation than a conveyance of regret or admittance of wrongdoing. And for that, at least, I really am truly sorry.
L,
S
I'm sorry I wasn't there for you today. What is more I'm sorry for all the times I haven't been there, like last night and the night before, when you were getting ready to go to Antonio's party. I know I can 'help', and that when you ask for it and its not there that is painful.
The pain is not the point.
Me not being there, unfortunately, is the point. I am essentially trying to do whatever it is that i want to do. What i need to do. What i need to do is climb. I do not need to climb so much. What i need to do is work. I need to work more. What i need to do is make sure that the children are taken care of. What i need to do is make sure that you are taken care of.
There is no ordering on needs. That is, no need is better than any other need, in particular there is no ordering that says what is the first need, the second need, the last need, and so on. They are just all needs.
Here's my problems: Right now you feel you need me. You need to figure out a lot of stuff without me. Without me is not alone, although that is a HARD one. I shouldn't put needs on other people, like you. I really, really shouldn't put needs on other people that would destroy them. I do not like this gamble. At all. The problem is that for whatever reason we don't seem to be able to be around each other right now, approximately 40% of the time. The problem is that when we shouldn't be around each other we, inevitably, are. I understand that this is not what you are mad at me about, or at least not solely. These are my problems.
I promise i will do my best to meet all my needs except the one where I need you to do more without me. All other needs I will do my best to achieve; each one given the consideration all needs deserve.
Like an apology, this one really comes off more as a lecture, more of an explanation than a conveyance of regret or admittance of wrongdoing. And for that, at least, I really am truly sorry.
L,
S
Saturday, March 30, 2013
a bit of insanity
my wife is mad at me. because "i don't get her". How mad is it that one may feel justified at being angered with a reasonable person for not understanding their insanity?
Last night i watched the children. We've been having some serious problems of a completely new nature recently, rather big problems in my book. But, more on that later, if ever. Last night I watched the children, and Jess went out with friends. I was with them all, Doug Jessica and Jess, a bit last night, but retired to my apartment (I'm living with Kyle last few weeks and for several weeks to come i imagine). I was tired of their company, the insanity of company and the insanity of the combination of moods and persons who were present at my house last night. So, I went home. I read a book.
Jess called. Can I come over to watch the kids so she can go out? Sure. Why not. I'll read over there. When I get there I say, into her eyes, "you don't have to go". Rather than the answer I was expecting, she seemed not tired and rather forced into going, but eager, excited. I had seen this behavior and thus experienced the uneasy feeling I got from it repeatedly several months ago, but I discounted it, ignoring the fact that I had overheard Jessica talking about 'getting someone on the phone' right before I had left earlier. After a moment, outside I asked Jess, cautiously, who was it that she was going out with.
"Oh, my friends to a bar". Avoidance, deflection. "Jessica and Doug have already left to go".
Well, that suited me fine. Later find out that Justin was there too. Not that she was alone with him, which creates all sorts of other problems for me. Why not mention it when she was leaving? Obvious reason #1: I might say, "fuck that", and turn my tail around and go home. Obvious reason #2: I most likely could not have went to bed peacefully a half hour later, laying in my bed hoping Jess would come home soon to kiss me goodnight. Completely-non-obvious-bull-shit-excuse Jess gives: I didn't think to mention it? It didn't seem relevant? I forgot? I wasn't thinking about Justin at the time you asked me?
Definition: If you are reaping rewards which would have otherwise been impossible by being misleading about information that would cause the rewards to be revoked or lessened, then you are taking advantage of someone.
Axiom: Sal does not like to be taken advantage of.
Corollary: Friends who take advantage of Sal are not Sal's friends.
So, I confront Jess this morning with my pain, anger. I tell her the cause because she is either not understanding the cause or purposefully ignoring it (another thing Sal doesn't like very much, burying problems usually leads to problem trees). Her response, essentially: "its not like it my fault for not telling you". What is further her response: "I'm mad at you too". Why are you mad at me? I ask. "For not getting me". How mad do you have to be to feel anger at a reasonable person for not understanding your insanity? Must I be insane to not feel the displeasure of my wife?
The path we are on is uncharted, and there are no lights. God help us.
Last night i watched the children. We've been having some serious problems of a completely new nature recently, rather big problems in my book. But, more on that later, if ever. Last night I watched the children, and Jess went out with friends. I was with them all, Doug Jessica and Jess, a bit last night, but retired to my apartment (I'm living with Kyle last few weeks and for several weeks to come i imagine). I was tired of their company, the insanity of company and the insanity of the combination of moods and persons who were present at my house last night. So, I went home. I read a book.
Jess called. Can I come over to watch the kids so she can go out? Sure. Why not. I'll read over there. When I get there I say, into her eyes, "you don't have to go". Rather than the answer I was expecting, she seemed not tired and rather forced into going, but eager, excited. I had seen this behavior and thus experienced the uneasy feeling I got from it repeatedly several months ago, but I discounted it, ignoring the fact that I had overheard Jessica talking about 'getting someone on the phone' right before I had left earlier. After a moment, outside I asked Jess, cautiously, who was it that she was going out with.
"Oh, my friends to a bar". Avoidance, deflection. "Jessica and Doug have already left to go".
Well, that suited me fine. Later find out that Justin was there too. Not that she was alone with him, which creates all sorts of other problems for me. Why not mention it when she was leaving? Obvious reason #1: I might say, "fuck that", and turn my tail around and go home. Obvious reason #2: I most likely could not have went to bed peacefully a half hour later, laying in my bed hoping Jess would come home soon to kiss me goodnight. Completely-non-obvious-bull-shit-excuse Jess gives: I didn't think to mention it? It didn't seem relevant? I forgot? I wasn't thinking about Justin at the time you asked me?
Definition: If you are reaping rewards which would have otherwise been impossible by being misleading about information that would cause the rewards to be revoked or lessened, then you are taking advantage of someone.
Axiom: Sal does not like to be taken advantage of.
Corollary: Friends who take advantage of Sal are not Sal's friends.
So, I confront Jess this morning with my pain, anger. I tell her the cause because she is either not understanding the cause or purposefully ignoring it (another thing Sal doesn't like very much, burying problems usually leads to problem trees). Her response, essentially: "its not like it my fault for not telling you". What is further her response: "I'm mad at you too". Why are you mad at me? I ask. "For not getting me". How mad do you have to be to feel anger at a reasonable person for not understanding your insanity? Must I be insane to not feel the displeasure of my wife?
The path we are on is uncharted, and there are no lights. God help us.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
and another thing
why is it that the little indian restaurants always charge you for everything everything. i mean, $1.50 for raita, $1.65 for onion chutney, you wanna have a refill? $2.00, you want some soup? $2.95 each, you spend $41 on a 'dinner for two' and spend $25 on 'extras'...
...and another thing
what, exactly, is wrong with a 28 year old getting a remote helicopter for his birthday? hmmm? no, what is wrong with that? what is wrong with going to the store and buying 10 more of those bad boys so all your friends can have one and you can have mid-air helicopter wars? huh? what's wrong with having a martini set and a remote controlled helicopter be simultaneously the best birthday presents you could have asked for?
...and another thing
what is up with your buddy coming over to your party, getting on the phone for 20 minutes, and leaving pubes on your toilet seat? is this normal? is this really something that i want to understand and have be a part of the 'things that i acknowledge as being understood', prolly not.
...and another thing
what is up with your girlfriend changing your f-u-c-q-i-n-g desktop all the f-o-c-k-n-g time? she has her own computer, or at least she has her own settings or whatever. change your own god-dammit desktop and leave my shit alone dammit!
ok im done, but seriously...
...and another thing
what, exactly, is wrong with a 28 year old getting a remote helicopter for his birthday? hmmm? no, what is wrong with that? what is wrong with going to the store and buying 10 more of those bad boys so all your friends can have one and you can have mid-air helicopter wars? huh? what's wrong with having a martini set and a remote controlled helicopter be simultaneously the best birthday presents you could have asked for?
...and another thing
what is up with your buddy coming over to your party, getting on the phone for 20 minutes, and leaving pubes on your toilet seat? is this normal? is this really something that i want to understand and have be a part of the 'things that i acknowledge as being understood', prolly not.
...and another thing
what is up with your girlfriend changing your f-u-c-q-i-n-g desktop all the f-o-c-k-n-g time? she has her own computer, or at least she has her own settings or whatever. change your own god-dammit desktop and leave my shit alone dammit!
ok im done, but seriously...
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