zero recall

i had a thought

it lasted for a moment

then it was gone

it changed the way i look at things, but

i'm not sure what change was made.

it's kind of like not remembering what it was like

to not know how to read

when you are a kid

this happens all the time, and you wouldn't even know it.

i mean how many times does a kid radically change his veiwpoint of the world

like on a daily basis

and when they are older, do they remember it?

the point, as if i had one, is this: think all the time,

think about lots of things, and figure a lot of stuff out,

and don't worry to write it down, or to feel bad

when you can't remember your good ideas. the point

it's not whether you recall, but just that you have stretched your mind.

"a mind once stretched never returns to it's original dimensions," I think the guy from Star Trek said that, but I'm not really sure.

new entry

now I think of what to write

I write to annihilate the blight

inside my head

can't go to bed

until the night awakes my fright

until the dawn

ill slumber on

without dreams a dreamer is done

forget the sound

above the ground

the birds song sung is first light come

today again

my dreams begun

alone at last in company run

to pass the course

the rest remorse

never choosing that choice

was the first right one

too many plates in front of me

never had enough to eat

but lately find

my mind and body

could not eat to satisfy its longing

not hunger nor fear

but contemplations near

the one course which ive fought before is clear

but from now on

there is only one

my life is not my life to run

the end in sight

I think I might

wish to sleep in peace tonight